Do you ever wonder if the reason you're still single is because you never replied to those dumb chain e-mails that tell you if you don't reply you're gonna have 1 million years of bad luck, no one will ever like you and you're never gonna get kissed again....haha...I never respond to those things!?!?!?! Is that why I'm screwed....??? I'm totally kidding...but I just thought that was pretty freakin' hillarious. Whenever I see those I have to stop and wonder if the person who sent it really thought it would come true...
Actually I'm really trying to avoid writing about what I'm really feeling....sigh
Monday, August 29, 2005
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
I need pills or something...
I'M A FREAKIN INSOMNIAC.....why the crack can't I fall asleep. My body is exhausted and my mind is racing 1000 m.p.h and I feel like I have this adrenaline flowing through my blood, but I'm yawning and my body feels tired...like a giant weight. All I can do is toss and turn and think of things I was supposed to do today or whatever....AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAA
If you couldn't tell...this is driving me nuts!!!
AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAA
If you couldn't tell...this is driving me nuts!!!
Sunday, August 21, 2005
Random Ramblings
I start school tomorrow! I'm nervous/excited/stressed! My life is about to go into over time with working full time and going to school full time. I'm excited and I know I'll be able to handle it...it just seems like so much! Hopefully all goes well...One thing is for sure...there sure seems to be lots of drama going on...what the heck is going on with the world....btw I CAN'T SLEEP....so dumb! I have to wake up early...and I can't stinkin' sleep! BLAH....I'm going to try again...I'm watching episodes of friends that I've seen millions of times...and I still can't fall asleep...too late for tylenol p.m....Oh I also can't stop thinking about having my own place. I think I'm really ready to move out. I just want to wait until I settle into school...My friend said that apartment prices usually decrease in October/the fall season, so I'll probably wait 2 months....but omg I'm getting impatient. I NEED MORE SPACE! Hopefully I can find a great deal that will make everything better! And put my mind at ease for all the things I'm trying to consider cost wise. So much for sleep.....o.k...time to go really.....I'll give an update about school tomorrow.
Saturday, August 13, 2005
Fun Night
So this weekend I went on the youth worker retreat with the other adults @ Bear Valley. It was pretty fun. I realized that I have some thinking to do about my place in the ministry but that's for another night or time...whatever.
But tonight, Christina and I both had the night off, so we went downtown and saw Dukes of Hazard, and went to Rock Bottom Brewery. Dukes of Hazard was pretty much what I expected....o.k...but nothing amazing. Nothing to write home about that's for sure! But it was entertaining, and there were some awesome car scenes....so at least for me who knows nothing about cars, it was cool. What is it about boys and cars??? haha. We were going to try something new down town, but it was cold and starving, so we decided to go to Rock Bottom, there was a wait so we sat in the bar, which was cool...I like their bar atmosphere, it was laid back but busy so there was a lot going on. Anyways, the food was awesome and we just talked about things that weren't depressing, for the first time in awhile. (She's going through a hard time with her husband, and my life is just in a weird/crazy/kinda depressing stage) So it was fun to just be care free and crap and not have to be stressed! Such a great feeling! ;) That's all, just a fun night! I'm going to go to bed b4 2 am on a Saturday for the first time in so long (usually I'm closing @ "The Bird"). OH....btw....can't wait to be 21! I'm so excited, because it sounds like our trip to Vegas is actually going to work for my 21 b-day! If we all have the money we want to get a hotel on the strip and then we can just go all out...and not have to worry about getting hammered...hmmm...did I just admit that! haha For all you mom's out there (because I know I'm one) we'll be safe and not stupid...=) 139 days and counting! lalalalalalala
But tonight, Christina and I both had the night off, so we went downtown and saw Dukes of Hazard, and went to Rock Bottom Brewery. Dukes of Hazard was pretty much what I expected....o.k...but nothing amazing. Nothing to write home about that's for sure! But it was entertaining, and there were some awesome car scenes....so at least for me who knows nothing about cars, it was cool. What is it about boys and cars??? haha. We were going to try something new down town, but it was cold and starving, so we decided to go to Rock Bottom, there was a wait so we sat in the bar, which was cool...I like their bar atmosphere, it was laid back but busy so there was a lot going on. Anyways, the food was awesome and we just talked about things that weren't depressing, for the first time in awhile. (She's going through a hard time with her husband, and my life is just in a weird/crazy/kinda depressing stage) So it was fun to just be care free and crap and not have to be stressed! Such a great feeling! ;) That's all, just a fun night! I'm going to go to bed b4 2 am on a Saturday for the first time in so long (usually I'm closing @ "The Bird"). OH....btw....can't wait to be 21! I'm so excited, because it sounds like our trip to Vegas is actually going to work for my 21 b-day! If we all have the money we want to get a hotel on the strip and then we can just go all out...and not have to worry about getting hammered...hmmm...did I just admit that! haha For all you mom's out there (because I know I'm one) we'll be safe and not stupid...=) 139 days and counting! lalalalalalala
Thursday, August 11, 2005
so frustrating
I'm falling in love, and I can't get up.....I hate this about myself. I care so much about people...and then I don't know what to do....and most the time....there's never a good chance...and now I'm left to cry myself to sleep at night...that doesn't make any sense in writing....but in my head it's crystal clear. IT SUCKS...hurt's so bad and there's no one to blame the pain on...but myself...dang-it.
